Attention

Dear readers, let me introduce myself.
A lost sheep in Africa, to be more precise, East Africa. Today Kenya, tomorrow Tanzania, Uganda etcetera.

So what do I, a Mzungu, do here? Well, I do everything that I need to do to make a living.
My profession? A problem fixer, a genuine trouble shooter. Been doing it more than 20 years now, and have become quite savvy. Been doing it in Europe, Middle East and now East Africa.

Do I like it? Yes, the kick when you have cut the deal, solved the problem is an adrenaline rush that can't be described by words..it's a feeling of being on top of the world. Invincible!

Most men have have a secret dream, whether they admit or not;

To always be the ”right one” in ”the right” moment, to be the one who puts order in place, the one who makes the correct decision, the only decision. The one who has higher goals in life, to lead and support, the one who plants seeds for other to harvest. True leadership.

The Real Man who men seeks to be, women crave for. The lonely hero who rides off in the sunset.

Lonely is the correct word; who can a hero be married to, who can marry a hero? Movies are full of these characters, they are drowning us in the movies about the gender roles, and we walk out from the theaters, full of hormones, back to home, doing your woman, imagining that you took her to heaven..her own hero, even if it is over after 4 minutes, because you just want to get off.

It is lonely in the middle of the night, when you wake up in another hotel room, and there is no one to call, no one who will comfort you, when you are suddenly doubting yourself; "will I make it or not?" Then you wake up in the morning, looking yourself in the mirror and getting a minor shock..but then, as a miracle, your face changes, the glow in your tired eyes comes slowly back, the pale skin starts shining..and then you utter the magic words, as you have done the last 20 years, looking yourself in the mirror; "Who is the king? Looking good today". 

The inner strength that makes you stand up, the inner strength that makes you forget about "why" you chose this career, the inner strength that makes your blood rush through your body like nuclear power. The daily come back, the 7 am routine.

To change, to make a change, also means that you have to follow a path and be taught the most important of all wisdoms: to follow your heart, to read the signs of the path of life, and first and foremost, to follow your dreams.

Signing off from a steamy Dar Es Salaam.